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Departure
03:16
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Born into incarceration gave you smaller feet
Small town USA without much money made it hard to leave
Family store is going under, Ma’s got no degree
Feels like we’re just waiting for the day that we can’t eat
Sunday’s getting heavier each week
Some days find it harder to believe
Don’t take it personally
Years have passed through the stained glass
And carried on just fine
Seems to me that I don’t need to give him all my time
So I devised a plan to free my own
A couple of hundreds, a pack of Marlboros,
It’s all I need to know
I want to see in color
So I stepped away
Shoes are tied, my head held high, I finally closed the door
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The Oracle
04:24
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I want to make a name
And put some placement to a few things on my plate
Read a book that flipped the weight
And sparked some curiosity in that term fate
I wanna make a map of all the places that I came
Seeking love, inanimate
A glass half empty, or a bottle half full
What’s the difference to you now, what’ll make you feel whole
A needle prick, or a rosary
It all sums up to attention seek
I feel a pull to change
The way we see ourselves, the emptiness caverning
I’m not convinced of pain
It’s something made up in our heads when face to face
It’s all just smaller parts of a bigger game that’s played
And I don’t relate
I saw those pearly gates, they were covered in rust
Sign that said “heaven can wait” covered in dust
Turned around and to surprise,
Saw my heart placed in some chemicals alive, no pain
Held it in my hand and felt the pulse of my
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3. |
Grey As The Sky
04:06
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January 1st was the first time I felt love
In 21 years, guess I waited long enough
Grey as the sky, I swam in your blue sea
Ivy played as you laid there next to me
If only you’dve known, how alone I’ve been
It’s hard for me to show the scars I’m hiding
So, please don’t go
I know that we just met tonight, but I feel like I’ve known you my whole life
Where were you in 2016
When it all fell apart, came crumbling
Down the mountain range, I had built on my name
I needed you back then but I guess now is okay
Sleep, next to me
Tell me of the life you live, the pain you felt, the love you give
I know I need you more than you need me.
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4. |
Girls
01:00
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I love the girls,
I love the girls who pretend to be so free
I love the boys,
Who then in turn pretend that’s who they need
Like they deserve her,
She’s not some bust you hang for the world to see
She is a girl,
And I’m a boy, which means she’s better than me.
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5. |
A List of What I'm Owed
03:47
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Alone, again
This Fall will end
And the snow will bury me
Don’t know what’s best,
So I made a list of what I’m owed
It’s all I know
“The snow will melt away, eventually I’ll dry”
No solutions to the problems kept inside
Can’t build on top of a lie
One more season trapped inside my mind
Home is a place
that holds the weight of your soul, lets it unfold
It can be a cage
Restrict you from the next page,
and you won’t grow, nothing to show
For this life, you claim to live free as a bird
In a cage, just like the rest of us, I heard
That you built your own world
High up safe from discern
Locked inside, do not disturb
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6. |
Gap Filler
04:54
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Waiting for a sign, or waiting for you to come home
Leave it all behind, you’re leasing what you thought you would own
Black Silver, Blue looker, fell in love with being alone
Gap filler, too familiar, you’re too soft to just let it go
Pictured you in grey blue sunshine from tales that you told
Stash it all away man, before you get hurt even more
Snow kissed, dark lips, I wanna dig a hole in your soul
Make a list you narcissist, it’s all you’re gonna get don’t you know
I know I need you, more than you need me
But I won’t desert you, I won’t leave suddenly
Not much you have to say to keep me company
Carve out both my eyes, so you can see
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Sedentary
04:28
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Buried underneath the snow, 20 miles from home
I realized all I had to say was so much less than whole
And though I didn’t have to leave, I couldn’t leave her alone
My conscience would’ve burned with the thought of her cold
I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for a year of nothing moving at all
My face in a frame, a plaque with my name, but it’s just not hung on the wall
A rook and a bishop caught in division, with a pawn stuck in between
You called it a tie, left me with my mind, and said, “go back to sleep”
God forbid you let me feel whole again
Tell me it’s just words inside my head
So open with the line you planned to close it with, to spare the shit
So someone else can bleed all over it.
No matter how much noise you make,
Or how loud you try to scream
It’s someone else’s choice whether or not you will be seen
And though I try to have faith in the plan,
Cuz the lord knows I deserve it
It’s falling apart, and taking my heart to a dark place, was it worth it?
I don’t know.
I know I’m not anyone’s savior,
But it has to mean something to someone
Just a shred of sentiment to justify the time i’ve spent
And I’ll hold out for years, if that’s what’s best.
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Levi's Slim Black Slacks
03:32
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Mama bought me a brand new pair of jeans
Without a hole in the knee
I break them out once a week,
If I have to dress professionally
Otherwise they stay in the back of my drawer
Just like the notes I wrote you, so many nights before
You’ll never read a single one, I swear
That’s okay, they won’t be going nowhere
Now I know why you’re leaving me so soon
I’ve got a plan I must see through
I’m sorry it wasn’t right,
Wasn’t made for love in the lights
No candles by my bedside,
No kisses send me goodnight
And I know now it’s not my fault
No one wants to love me at all
But I don’t need a bottle or a cross
To get me through the night, with fingers crossed
Every night I leave might be the last time
How many more 3 am bike rides?
I’ve been contemplating where the rock in me is staying
Now that I know how I’m supposed to fly
Flying back from SFO so soon
Lord knows I can’t help thinking of you
And what we could’ve been
If I didn’t have these hearts to mend,
A mouth to feed at the table
A feeling so unfaithful,
A future ten years down the line,
All triviality behind
I know that it’s impossible to pair
With having someone to blind me with their care
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9. |
A Shift In Focus
04:29
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Studio nook in New York City
It’s all I can manage, but it sure ain’t as pretty
As the grey blue sunshine I met last year
Who gave me a sword and helped the smoke clear
But I wasn’t made for love in the lights
Got bigger questions that I can’t deny
On how to save mankind from decree
By removing consuming from under lock and key
We weren’t put here to revolt or resist
Or claim that our way was the key to exist
You say, “we’ll find peace once man just gets better”
Then look to the sky and ask to stay forever
A man in the back of the pizza shop
Punches out for his break, to pray on a cardboard box
Says pray with me and spare me some green
And set up faith on DVD
Well if you know what you’ve got, then you ain’t got much
So just take and take, it’ll never be enough
There’s a vital flaw in man’s design,
We feel such a need to claim things as “mine”
If a man won’t abide by my cause, he will be
Cast forth as a branch, small and withering
And all the branches will be thrown in the fire
And all that remains will be pure from desire
Man, how the fuck is that compassionate?
“Love thy neighbor” took backseat to this?
Well I don’t buy your hierarchy
We’ll govern ourselves with love and peace
Daily trip down the bar strip
Where you still work, & where I still live
And I’ll look for your car so I know you exist
Didn’t make you up, like the rest of it
Man, looking back, it went by quick
What lacked in time, made up in substance
But then you had to go and bail
Cuz god forbid you let me feel whole again
Lately I’ve been questioning
My place inside this submarine
I’m getting older, I should probably invest
In a house, or a car to establish success
With every blink the dream flys by
“Wait one more week, now’s not the time”
“Sorry kid, just not good enough”
What you mean to say is “I don’t fit the glove”.
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